A moment in forgotten time, where the evening sparrows could not spread their wings to soar through the sunlit sky. This, ironically would say so much about me.
Time has always been my greatest enemy (after myself of course) and greatest dread. Yeah, well, it's always closin up on me. Right now, it's a quarter to 5pm and I haven't been doing much since the past weekend. I didn't attend school as well, but went to e-gate instead. ahaks.
Pretty lately, problems seem to have gotten the best of me, almost.. well, kinda. Just until I experienced something so magical n wondrous. That is again, God's works. How He answered my prayers and cries, how He granted me wonderful friends to fall back to.. but most of all, is how He spoke to me in so many ways possible. With just one look, one might think of all the stuff and nonsense staunch christians would jabber about.. I don't blame you. Well, seriously, they do talk sh*t but somehow, they meant well. I can vouch for that. Uh-huh.
And the question once again, falls back on this--
"Am I going to school tomorrow?"
My inner self and outer voice debates endlessly on the subject in question.
*gasp*
I shudder when I look at the time. Speaking of which, I would go against all odds to write that MPH essay competition on 'Time'. So much to say, yet oppressed by the title itself. Likewise, I haven't had the time to sit down and relax, nor do I have all the tick-tocks in the world to catch up on my beauty sleep. *sigh* Sad, no? Every ounce and pound of my time goes to the waste-paper basket.Not that I ever wanted to lead it there, it somehow just ends up where it is now. Damn. My eyes fleeted to the clock again.
My reluctance is defeated by the influence of guilt. Sayonara with a sad smile.
Monday, July 24, 2006
Saturday, July 01, 2006
:: Age catches up ::
My birthday morning has reduced to nothing but angst!!!
oh darn.... I just realised that I had actually mentioned the longest string of foul words when I was rudely awakened to the sound of bickering at bloody 8A.M IN THE MORNING! Yeah, hey... truth to tell, I really had no idea I could actually take profanity to extreme level. That's no fault of mine; would you be all so sweet with fuckin' sunshines, butterflies and rainbows above your head when you're jolted out from your sleep? *lol* Need I say more?
Life was sweet... Shoot! I feel like an 80year-old hag reminiscing her youth. Whatev-
The gift of life has taught me much, but the journey shall continue. Keeping the old memories but never afraid to make more, learning never stops.. like foolish donkeys walking forward to a dangling carrot. Heck, now I feel silly.
As true as it all sounds, the old times are the past, what lies ahead is the future, but today is a gift.. that's why it's called the present!
Yesterday was the best birthday present ever. The present from God Almighty. Ah yes... he works in wondrous ways that even we cannot decipher. Thank you, Lord for giving me the subject prize. Although I'm up there receiving your gift, I know that you are right beside me.
12hours ago, was my birthday eve celebratory dinner.. at SUSHI'S!!! Yayy!! Did some people-watching (no worries it won't be like the last time) and saw an obnoxious woman with her torn undergarment for public display! Yeah, i warned my mum not to be so oblivious to her surroundings in let's say... 20years down the road. Not that I will bother, of course but at least I wouldn't get all self-conscious if people start to stare or whisper. My cell-phone just couldn't stop bugging me last night, hey thanks to all you blessed souls out there! Thanks for remembering me! *grins*
Mum and kakak switched off the lights and came in with my favorite chocolate brownies!! (with a lighted candle on embedded) singing a not-so-dignified version of 'Happy Birthday
to You' Tonight as usual, my hubbz will be planning some sort of surprise for me. Which is sweet! But hey, I never get tired of his surprises! You gogo darling!
Being older never felt better!
oh darn.... I just realised that I had actually mentioned the longest string of foul words when I was rudely awakened to the sound of bickering at bloody 8A.M IN THE MORNING! Yeah, hey... truth to tell, I really had no idea I could actually take profanity to extreme level. That's no fault of mine; would you be all so sweet with fuckin' sunshines, butterflies and rainbows above your head when you're jolted out from your sleep? *lol* Need I say more?
Life was sweet... Shoot! I feel like an 80year-old hag reminiscing her youth. Whatev-
The gift of life has taught me much, but the journey shall continue. Keeping the old memories but never afraid to make more, learning never stops.. like foolish donkeys walking forward to a dangling carrot. Heck, now I feel silly.
As true as it all sounds, the old times are the past, what lies ahead is the future, but today is a gift.. that's why it's called the present!
Yesterday was the best birthday present ever. The present from God Almighty. Ah yes... he works in wondrous ways that even we cannot decipher. Thank you, Lord for giving me the subject prize. Although I'm up there receiving your gift, I know that you are right beside me.
12hours ago, was my birthday eve celebratory dinner.. at SUSHI'S!!! Yayy!! Did some people-watching (no worries it won't be like the last time) and saw an obnoxious woman with her torn undergarment for public display! Yeah, i warned my mum not to be so oblivious to her surroundings in let's say... 20years down the road. Not that I will bother, of course but at least I wouldn't get all self-conscious if people start to stare or whisper. My cell-phone just couldn't stop bugging me last night, hey thanks to all you blessed souls out there! Thanks for remembering me! *grins*
Mum and kakak switched off the lights and came in with my favorite chocolate brownies!! (with a lighted candle on embedded) singing a not-so-dignified version of 'Happy Birthday
to You' Tonight as usual, my hubbz will be planning some sort of surprise for me. Which is sweet! But hey, I never get tired of his surprises! You gogo darling! Being older never felt better!
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