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Ladies and gents, I have finally regained access to my lost blog! haha. anyhow, this was 2006's blog and i have already relocated to LiveJournal in 2007 and i moved BACK AGAIN to blogspot. it has my whole life and happenings on it, everything. AND NOW, AFTER A SEASONED 4 YEARS OF BLOGGING, I HAVE MY OWN DOMAIN.

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--jess

:: If I just could.. ::

A moment in forgotten time, where the evening sparrows could not spread their wings to soar through the sunlit sky. This, ironically would say so much about me.

Time has always been my greatest enemy (after myself of course) and greatest dread. Yeah, well, it's always closin up on me. Right now, it's a quarter to 5pm and I haven't been doing much since the past weekend. I didn't attend school as well, but went to e-gate instead. ahaks.

Pretty lately, problems seem to have gotten the best of me, almost.. well, kinda. Just until I experienced something so magical n wondrous. That is again, God's works. How He answered my prayers and cries, how He granted me wonderful friends to fall back to.. but most of all, is how He spoke to me in so many ways possible. With just one look, one might think of all the stuff and nonsense staunch christians would jabber about.. I don't blame you. Well, seriously, they do talk sh*t but somehow, they meant well. I can vouch for that. Uh-huh.

And the question once again, falls back on this--
"Am I going to school tomorrow?"
My inner self and outer voice debates endlessly on the subject in question.

*gasp*
I shudder when I look at the time. Speaking of which, I would go against all odds to write that MPH essay competition on 'Time'. So much to say, yet oppressed by the title itself. Likewise, I haven't had the time to sit down and relax, nor do I have all the tick-tocks in the world to catch up on my beauty sleep. *sigh* Sad, no? Every ounce and pound of my time goes to the waste-paper basket.Not that I ever wanted to lead it there, it somehow just ends up where it is now. Damn. My eyes fleeted to the clock again.

My reluctance is defeated by the influence of guilt. Sayonara with a sad smile.

:: Age catches up ::

My birthday morning has reduced to nothing but angst!!!

oh darn.... I just realised that I had actually mentioned the longest string of foul words when I was rudely awakened to the sound of bickering at bloody 8A.M IN THE MORNING! Yeah, hey... truth to tell, I really had no idea I could actually take profanity to extreme level. That's no fault of mine; would you be all so sweet with fuckin' sunshines, butterflies and rainbows above your head when you're jolted out from your sleep? *lol* Need I say more?

Life was sweet... Shoot! I feel like an 80year-old hag reminiscing her youth. Whatev-
The gift of life has taught me much, but the journey shall continue. Keeping the old memories but never afraid to make more, learning never stops.. like foolish donkeys walking forward to a dangling carrot. Heck, now I feel silly.

As true as it all sounds, the old times are the past, what lies ahead is the future, but today is a gift.. that's why it's called the present!


Yesterday was the best birthday present ever. The present from God Almighty. Ah yes... he works in wondrous ways that even we cannot decipher. Thank you, Lord for giving me the subject prize. Although I'm up there receiving your gift, I know that you are right beside me.




12hours ago, was my birthday eve celebratory dinner.. at SUSHI'S!!! Yayy!! Did some people-watching (no worries it won't be like the last time) and saw an obnoxious woman with her torn undergarment for public display! Yeah, i warned my mum not to be so oblivious to her surroundings in let's say... 20years down the road. Not that I will bother, of course but at least I wouldn't get all self-conscious if people start to stare or whisper. My cell-phone just couldn't stop bugging me last night, hey thanks to all you blessed souls out there! Thanks for remembering me! *grins*

Mum and kakak switched off the lights and came in with my favorite chocolate brownies!! (with a lighted candle on embedded) singing a not-so-dignified version of 'Happy Birthday to You' Tonight as usual, my hubbz will be planning some sort of surprise for me. Which is sweet! But hey, I never get tired of his surprises! You gogo darling!

Being older never felt better!

:: Me & my big mouth ::

I.... just.. love.... 'Unfaithful' by Rihanna.

BUT! a capital 'but' that is. That song has nothing even remotely close to my life, from the bottom of my heart. I assure you darling. *mwahx*
I practically love it just because it's very honest and with all her good heart, she doesn't want to hurt her current man anymore for all that she done or about to do.

You guys out there better listen to this latest number yea?
It bagged the number 7th spot on the Billboard charts.

My anniversary was just over yesterday. Haha. Nothing exactly interesting though.. woke up late, had lunch, watched the telly, went for tuition, had dinner, watched the idiot box again, went to sleep. How odd hmm>? No.. don't jump to conclusions. We celebrated it the day before! =) Had a blast with you dear~

And..... *drumroll* consecutively my birthday's just around the corner! Say.. 2more days? Yup. And from what I know, my babe's got something up his sleeve again. Owhkay... I'll wait. 2more days can't possibly be that long right? =) But, God still gave me the best present of all. The Biology subject prize that's going to reach my hands this Friday! Wait a sec-

That means tomorrow, no? *Wheeee* Praise the Lord for He works in wonders! Hallelujah!

On another note, something outrageous happened to me yesterday. I was doing some people watching with KittYeng and Fazrina after tuition yesterday. The usual, eyeing the hair, the look, the car that pulls up to fetch them, the clothing, the bags.. etc. I clearly remembered that I mentioned very audibly that I really favour Chevrolet Aveo. Coincidentally, an Aveo approached us. Simply wonderful.. but damn, it was an awful shade of Dark Blue. With that, I said (quite loudly I suppose) that how that icky colour made the car look terrible to a point that it can't possibly be any more horrendous. Fazrina laughed. Normal isn't it? Until.....................................
she walked right up to that car!!! AAAARRRGGHHH!!! That incident taught me to keep my gab shut and to reserve my comments. But if I did, it wouldn't be me anymore. =) Maybe I shud learn to be a little more discreet? Yeah, that'll help. Sorry Faz! =0 I had no idea!

Time to hide my embarrassment.. bury my face in some food! *lol*
out!

--Jess

:: Rush hour! ::

Hie honey... mafuckin' jelly


Gross. That just gave me the goosebumps. Since when did I ever started addressing my blog that way? Whatev-

School was awesome today. Obviously the reason being something happened that made me somewhat happy. Yeah, the positions were out! And well, I clenched the 5th spot. *woohoo* Now mum, you don't have any God-damned reason not to treat me better! =P

Haha. You know what ain't no laughing matter? It's the fact that I've not done, oh, scratch that.. I've not even STARTED my EST essay and BM essay. And unlucky-lucky me, its due date is TOMORROW!!!!!!!! How saddening. Serve me right for not prioritizing well. *sigh*

Ciao. Need to go start those darn essays... owh how cute! My hubby's right behind me all curled up in a ball sleeping so soundly.. almost like a pangolin during winter! *lol*

xx-jess-xx

:: Time well spent ::

Finally found the time to actually make my way here... not that she dreads it; but... hey, she seldom has time for you! =) *I hate refering to myself in the third person* Aiight, anyway.. holidays was a blast! Hmm... not exactly as awesome as my last weekend but, it'll do. *grins* Ipoh and went on a shopping spree 4times in just a week! Darn.. my pocket's run dry. Aww c'mon, a quarter for a little girl>? Heck, I could probably buy half a Hacks' sweet with that.

At the end of the week, was that darn St. Nicholas visit. Not that I actually remembered, but it's just the most unfortunate thing in the world that I so happen to be the one in-charge. But, it was cool though... in a way. The unpleasant thing was, my eyes just HAD to roam off so far again till it landed on some pathetic dude of 19. (Shut up, Rosabelle!) It's just one of the lamest things that can't seem to leave me alone. =/ Yeah, honestly it bugs me. Love my eyes yet hate them so much. Wait a sec-

St. Nicholas' is a center for visually impaired people, no? Forgive me Lord. Anyway, as I was saying before I was rudely interupted by my righteous half.. yeah, my eyes. It irks me like, all the time. It just depends on the degree of it. *sigh* The thing is, these things always happen out of my will. Sub-conscious but at the same time, so aware. Sadly, it occurs ALL THE TIME. But thankfully, it subsides after less than 3hours. Why can't everybody be any less charming? Whatev-

The most important thing is that, my partner trusts me. I'm thankful that he understands that it's just a lame thing that usually comes and goes in just a blink of an eye. Without that degree of trust he has, we would probably be long gone. But then again, no! There's just this invincible bond between us.. two years with him is just heaven. Well, almost 2years.. but still, it's a bed of a thousand roses. Love ya boo~

Yupyup, that St. Nick day was just another passing phase of my chapter. It's whited-out and erased from all memories.. let the maggots deal with the remains! =) Now here's the blast! Last weekend was THE WEEKEND that I never expected would have occured. It was yes, very simple but sweet. Like cross stitches? *lol* Friday was spent with my ever-loving partner and so was Saturday and Sunday! Saturday was Gurney day and the latter was Father's Day. Yeah, as usual... ma darling cooked up a storm and dad was touched, I tell you! Honestly, it's sort of because I'd never do or even intend to do something like that for that God-forsaken bastard. =no regrets= Just finished half a tube of Lays' Sour cream and onion potato crisps.. *burp* and watched Scary Movie. Haha. Indeed a simple life. Wonder if I could be an intern just like Paris and Nicole... it's just absurd but, no harm in imagination right? *winks* It's just a phase that I'm going through... I'm always looking for something new... blabla.. He's too fast for me to catch his words.

Oh.. thousand apologies. I was just listening to Enrique Iglesias (however you actually spell that) -Not in love. Why does the time seem to freeze when I'm not doing anything?

Darling's still in college now. Hmm.. guess I'd best be off. Need to have my rest.
zzzzz

sweet dreams!
xx-jess-xx

:: Memoirs of a semi-starved lass ::

*uggh*

I'm feeling so sluggish.
Guess what the bloody time is already? Yeah, 2.25am. Can't actually get my friggin' ass to sleep. Partly because-

a) I'm hungry
b) I'm very hungry
c) I'm veryvery hungry

Well, it's not like I'm some Jamie Oliver who can just whip out something phenomenal out of a.... ummm.. an egg for example? or even a slice of ham. Just so you know, I'm no cook! But hey, I can simply make toast or chuck anything into the microwave can't I? NNNNNO! That's because SOMEBODY has already kept everything away, and refused to replenish all the foodstuff in the kitchen. I'll be in Ipoh for more than a week that's why. Pretty reasonable to do that isn't it? Whatev-
But everything is different when I'm hungry! I feel like walking to any Mamak stall to have my usual ultra-fattening Roti Planta or Roti Telur. *lol* There goes my diet!
Once again, NNNNNO! In my neighbourhood, it's almost impossible to even walk your dog for a freakin 5minutes without getting marked by potential baddies. So, no can do. *sigh*

Come on.. I can definately redirect my mind to something more worthwhile can't I? Yeah.. for instance, today. The wedding luncheon of God-knows-who. *lol* Actually, I think I know who. *Draws imaginary family tree* Yeah.. gramms's brother's 2nd son. Yup. it was somewhat embarrassing as I couldn't recognise the bride nor the groom during the tea ceremony.. and neither did mum. Maybe she's not as bad as I am, for she managed to acknowledge all those wrinkle-tarts that I've never even seen before in my entire 17years. Heck, they claimed to have held me in their arms as a child. Oh really?? I shouldn't trust, lest one might be a serial murderer on the loose. =P

Anyyyyway, mum and I took some shots here and there. Here's one by the way... yeah. Nice ain't it? Luvya mum! Before the wedding ceremony began, jolly Uncle Mike was busy taking pictures of himself! =) *lol* That's him all over. He's more of the Ryan Seacrest meets Aznil something (the faggot host of Akademi Fantasia). Yeah, more umm.. how do I put it in a way that doesn't offend the metrosexual community? Just a little touch on the feminine side, I would say? Mmmhmm.

We have another wedding to attend on the 4th of June '06 in Ipoh. *groan* Why does everyone seem to be getting married this time around? Some 'chinesey' auspiscious date perhaps? I suppose. =/ Heck, I don't mind anyway! At least my new dress from SUB gets to be utilised! Oh, and speaking of purchases, I bought a scent from Tommy Hilfiger yesterday. Hah.. simply sensual....mmmm. It's that Beyonce- True Star Gold scent thingythingy. The price was exhorbitant and you can obviously guess what mum's expression was.. *uh-oh*

Hmm.. lookie here. Half an hour has passed and I'm still hungry. I think I'll go and ransack the fridge for something edible.

----out for now. Happy Holz~

:: weekend blues? NOT! ::

I'm glad I stayed back for our anniversary eve!

Well, as expected.. it was fun. Spent time in the kitchen while stealing a kiss or two. Hey, it was fun watching Mr. Chef do all the work! *ahhem* I peeled A POTATO.. yes, A POTATO. Singular noun. Hmm.. what else did I do>? Oh yeah, folded aluminium foil and.. erm... stirred the mixture here and there for no good reason. *lol* I must admit, he puts me to shame when it comes to cooking! But, I certainly have my OWN qualities too... that he falls short of as well. =P

Spent time with the kids (his cousin & sis) as I got too bored of being the good-for-nothing-when-it-comes-to-cooking bystander in the kitchen. Heck, I realised that ever since I've learnt Physics, I seem to be better in that Pick-Up-Stix game. Had fun playing with stickers that I gave Rach, and haha being so very me... I stuck some stickers in my babyboy's room. Haha.. 1 on the computer seat, 1 on his closet, and an extremely huge and awful-looking one on his window pane! Oo0o0 and wait...!!!! Did I mention that his grandpappy was hot? Yes, he is.... rewinded to 50years in time. Oh goodness... I'm plain deluded. That's my boyfriend's 75year-old grandfather! What am I going to oggle over next? His pet chameleon?
The verdict>? His Alfredo Spirali was yummy! As always darling, you rock! and Anniversary Sunday's Chicken Al-Pussin (whatever the spelling is) was sinfully delicious! Blimey! If I had to go through this every day, I'll be 5times my weight by 30! =0 and that's not very nice... What's nice is, we spent time cuddling the evening away. *grins* Mom came to pick me up soon after... Baby, just want to thank you for the wonderful anniversary! Love ya!

Black Monday started at 10am for me... *yawn* Wasted lots of time walking around aimlessly and napping away. Had the adreanalin going for an hour just before dolling up to go shopping! *winks* As usual, I can never leave a mall without a purchase... being the shopaholic I am. So, I returned with a pair of white heels from Carlo Rino! I fell totally in love with the shoebox. Simply beautiful... Will insert the piccie soon! Met the psychopath from my school there. The one that ran away from home and later got splashed all over the dailies? Yeah that kid.

So today came today.. drinking canned Milo now. I'm so proud of myself! Not for drinking that God-forsaken Milo, but for cleaning up Furby's cage after a bloody long time. Actually, I do know exactly how long but if I were to mention it here on public entertainment, your mouth would probably expand to the size of your computer screen and your jaw would be dislocated prior to that. Don't blame me! Right now, weather's clear.. showers expected soon, as I stink of hamster dung. *lol* Yeah.. my showers. Situation? Kakak's jabbering on the phone now, probably to mum.. oh yes, it is mum. Kakak's doing what she does best, whine. Now, she's whining about how burnt her fishes are, due to the never-ending rings of the house telephone. The last time, it was about me taking candid shots of her when she was snoozing on the couch. The previous one was about how Furby's cage started to emit obnoxious fumes. And the week before, it was about how I put a
plastic beetle under her kettle. You get what I mean now? It just goes on and on. Fancy how I managed to survive under her armpits for 15years. I love her all the same. You rule, woman!
No wait.. I'm the boss around here. =P This is her, the woman that rocks the household! Even the picture itself shows her whining.. muahahaha

Alrightey then, time to exasperate her again. It's rather quiet without her whining her head off actually.

:: God solved my problems ::

Heyhey.. it's me again!
Yeah God hear my cry and well, decided to help me out I guess?

I'm not going to Flix anymore, I'm celebrating my anniversary with my babyboii! -wheee- I don't know how you did it, but everythng fell in place so smoothly. Thank You Lord

Ooh.. by the way, I'm done with my manicure! Like it? =)

xoxo

:: burning the phone line ::

Exactly..

Post conversation with Carmen: My ears are warm and has a funny feeling to it.

ANYWAY, I enjoyed that conversation with you gurl... see ya soon!


oh, and I still havent done my manicure. That was supposed to be like, what, 4hours ago?
*lol*